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awesome song to all my lovers.

i meant so much to you but it's not enough.

i really wanna go bkk for this party. i am seriously thinking about bkk everyday because of it, i hope nic can get me his hotel at the cheapest rate possible, so awesome to have a friend that has a hotel in bkk. and i dun have to fret about lodging. ahh, but lodging is so god damn cheap there what am i talking about. i need 400 bucks, tell me how to get fast cash now!

HEHEHEHEH

IT'S TIME FOR A NEW CHANGE AFTER MUCH CONTEMPLATING.

COME ON LOVERS,
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i am moving away from blogger because it's kinda fucked now. so wait and see k. meanwhile i shall be patient with this.

intrigued by you and your everything.

this part of me i cant refrain
from feeling a feeling i cant explain.
and in that world that's cast upon with dark grey skies
filled with sorrows and humans in disguise
comes along a man, a part of them,
who feels cold, down and pain
gave a sudden grin across the aisle,
came to me and gave his hands
and he said this "beneath all those darkness, beneath all those masks, there's always hope and there's also happiness you seek which only comes from deep within."

i am so freaking sick, and i haven been to school. i want to die, this sucks. how to go genting on friday like that. :(
i realised i have stalkers. and ive found my 16 year old picture.




i laugh at everything possible. i laugh because i think that is really unbelievable, its like not seeing what you see. its like everything out there is a hoax. it's like everyone is pretending to be cool. sometimes i dunno how to believe, yet at the end of the day, i have to believe to live. these are chances i cannot take. sometimes i find all these things exciting and it intrigues me. it's like you never know what you will get at the end of it. makes me wanna yearn for it, makes me feel like once i start i cannot stop until theres nothing to it anymore. sometimes everyone is a mystery, sometimes they arent. so how many people out there isnt what they appear to be? and how many people are what they truly are?

almost lovers always do

okay, erm i think theres either something wrong with the browser, or something wrong with blogger facebook and twitter or erm something wrong with me. cos facebook is lag, twitter is lag, blogger is in a wierd layout. i seriously think its my problem. why do i always have problems with mozilla, why tell me why.

i am wierd, i am starting to have like speech disorder. tell me about it? hahahaha, i cant even pronounce words properly, and the funniest thing is, i even forgot how to spell exceed. yes, laugh all you want, because i laugh at myself ever single time i think of that. oh btw i spelled it as exit, cos thats the closest word i can get at that moment when i forgot how to spell exceed. and the best part is, my brother corrected me and i started laughing standing at zouk's smoking area looking at my dumb msg. so tell me what's happening to me? why are all these wierd things starting to happen to me? because it must have all happened for a reason. drink too much perhaps.

recent reports state that drinking alcohol causes throat cancer. doctors encourage beers more than alcohol. (i dunno why) the chances for getting throat cancer through drinking alcohol is even higher than smoking. smoking is only able to cause throat cancer after puffing for around 30 years, while drinking allows it to attack your body faster. aint it scary? non-smokers tend to die faster you see, just by drinking and having fun, it can cause cancer. how bout passive smokers? i always thought that drinking causes liver damage or maybe liver cancer, never expected it to also cause throat cancer. who knew drinking can be so deadly, and even deadlier than smoking. while some people smoke for all their life, they didnt die of lung cancer, they didnt die of smoking. they died of something else. freaking irony.

i really wanna upload photos badly. goodnight, ttys.

maybe baby, life is great.

i am very irritated with blogger, again. now how am i supposed to upload photos. :(

had a long weekend, and enjoyed the weekend. and for the first time i played dota, omg. pity dextan for having to sit beside me telling me what to do, what to buy and which character to be and how to kill. lol. and i still dont get whats so fun about dota. and all 12 of us watched g.i joe together, thumbs up for that movie. was so into it that i couldnt be bothered with everyone thats around me already. surprisingly, i wasnt the latest although i was late. out of the latest, i was the earliest. everyone was busy waiting for one another to confirm, and everyone was busy waiting for me to wake up. what kind of excuse is that man. i ended up being the organizer when i thought someone else was. this is funny, imagine the first thing i woke up was that OMG, i have to alliance with all 13 people about the movie? "damn", i thought. and even though i stay the furthest, i was the earliest, but cheers to fendy for being the fastest despite the fact that i was only contacting few of them through phone, and HAH, fendy through facebook. and what annoys me the most is having people calling me up a few times to check to confirm whos going, yet cant confirm themselves about attending. sometimes it just makes me feel that its a waste of time. and i finally gave them the 50bucks worth of "dickied" boxers. now i dont have to carry it around like a fool everyday anymore. supposedly, i was so excited about heading to zouk, brodinski for rsg, but neither did i expect that movie ended at 2 plus. and i had to gave up persuading weilik&fendy to go.

had the best shortest night at zouk on fri with the cliques. i was there 2 hours before closing and what i saw was a sight. everyone was high and doing silly things, saying silly things. they were really funny, i cant contain my laughter i had to laugh and laugh and laugh. even before i reached, they had to text me stupid messages, and the moment i reached they were saying silly things to me about being the latest like i was queen and had to throw me up in the air and hug me like i was an object. i can only thank god that i wasn't injured from all that. and because for the first time i was one of those still being sober, i got to see scenes that were not to be missed, scenes that was the best i have seen in clubs(because apparently i was almost always the first to be like them. HEH). it was a blast. so now i finally truly know how it feels to see people behaving like me, oh no, a group of them behaving like me. HAHA.

just got back from the short yet tiring trip to bkk. never bought so many clothes in 4 days, i spent like i was queen. with bags and bags and bags full of clothes, i couldnt even be bothered going manicure. all i did was to have massages every single day. i wasnt even exaggerating about the many bags of clothes. i should have taken pictures of those bags, and how i just buy and buy and buy and buy and squeeze those in bags. instead of filling the bed full of clothes, we filled the floor full of clothes. awesome much? we were so busy with shopping, we missed our meals. besty was worst, she didnt even grumble, surprisingly. while i the shopaholic was busy complaining about how much my foot hurt and how hungry i was. heh. bkk's filled with bapoks all over, its overwhelming. i just cant help wondering whether is there a problem with being a guy? why do so many of them wants to be a girl so badly, that they transformed into one? it's everywhere, and the population is still growing rapidly. this is sad.

finally met up with nash&jp. they are still the same old loverboys that i know. maybe that the only change is jp's life, the kind which i have never ever thought it will be the way he will ever be. but great if he loves it. it was lovely to have met up with them.

ps: rejoice, becos i have no class today! goodnight babies.

i will always be an asshole to another asshole.

because just yesterday night, i felt like i have friends that were really nice to me. like how hendrick came to pick me up because he couldnt bare to have me take cab back alone. i have never done bad things to people, other than bitching about some retarded girl and doing brainless things in a r/s. have never stolen anything, have never not return a phone to anybody, have never killed, have never exposed anything about anyone doing stupid things, have never betrayed anybody but i always get into shit. arent we all good friends?

now you see why i am always able to do things alone, like walk around foreigncountry alone, leave alone, go shopping coffee alone, because i am better off being alone. so i dont have to do anything to or for people, and people, they dont have to do anything to/for me. why do people always do things to their advantage? how do we get done and over with the things we hate to do?

and it's an irony cos, i have lots of friends, and a plenty of goodfriends too. yet this little small tiny part of my life is screwing up quite badly. it's always the case.

the right thing to do is to be an asshole to another asshole. that should be the way.

I WILL NOT GIVE UPPPPP. i must get done and over with it